Sunday 31 March 2013

Went to the Woods

S and I went to a Suffolk Woodland yesterday. I thought I would get a chance to put my new outfit on but it didn't happen. Instead I dressed in a black woollen tunic and fishnet tights. I dressed at home so the drive was also exciting. S doesn't mind doing the driving while I'm dressed so I can enjoy the myself and chill out. The most nervous moments are getting out of the house but I'm beginning to get philosophical about it all in so much that if I get seen then I get seen. The drive took just under two hours and because we left late we headed for the fish and chip restaurant. S went in to get the food and I sat in the car. As always, I suppose I'm a bit of a curiosity, people seem to stare somewhat. It was a busy car park and a popular destination. I normally wear sunglasses so it makes it easier for me to see who's looking.

After our food, which was yummy by the way and didn't do anything to help my diet at all, we went to a local woodland car park which is fairly secluded, apart from some walkers and dog owners, and somewhere I can get out and have a walk. Of course I get seen and it is a bit scary but I managed to enjoy myself. Such freedom is virtually impossible to get closer to home. Perhaps I should be bolder and from time to time I am. This has included a 35 minute circular walk (see below).

S took a couple of photos of me which are included here.

 
I never realised that the tunic was that short. Still I guess the clue is in the word tunic and not dress. Incidently I get a lot of people saying I should be wearing high heels and if I found them comfortable then I would wear them, but I don't so I only wear them occasionally. The highest heel I wear for comfort is about a 1 1/2 inch wedge shoes. The other thing about high heels is that they tend to sink into soft ground which is what the woodlands is made up of.

You can't see it very well in the photos but I was also wearing a bright pink chain necklace and bracelet.

After a couple of hours walking about we moved on to somewhere else and we must have been noticed because a blue saloon car followed. We pulled up on small parking spot next to the woodland and I got out. I was then followed by the man who caught up with me and we stood having a conversation about my crossdressing. I never got his name but he seemed more interested in looking at S and after about 20 minutes he moved on

A Little Home Excursion

A short while ago, a Sunday evening, I was so fed up I decided, probably in a moment of madness, to go out for a walk dressed enfemme from home. I planned a circular route from home and the trip both S and I calculated to be about 15 minutes. Well we got that wrong because it took just over half an hour. I decided to wear my red shift dress and my coat as it was cold. I was quite brave at first but as I got further away from the safety of my home the nerves started to take hold. Fortunately the excitement of being out dressed overcame the nerves. So turning left out of my home I headed up the road passing on the way the neighbour's home would recognise if they saw me but under the cover of darkness it helped to keep my secret safe. Our road is fairly busy and cars were going by all the time. I don't mind the cars coming from behind me, it's the cars coming towards you that cause problems because  you are in their headlights and the our road isn't that well lit. After a few hundred yards I turned left onto **** Road. This road is heavily populated residential area. The odd car passed by but the walk up the hill to the major A road went without incident and I tried to enjoy the feeling of being out dressed as woman. As I reached the A road I was surprised just how well it was lit and although I've driven up and down this road many times I hadn't really noticed it before. Cars were going past me a some speed so by the time they realised what I was, if they did, it was already too late. I walked past a speed camera and wondered that if it went off would I be in the photo. The thought amused me to think of me being captured like that. The most nerve wracking part was going to be walking past McDonalds which was on the next corner. Looking through the window as I went past there weren't many in there, but turning the corner and crossing the road to the entrance there were plenty of cars going in and out for the drive thru. I had to wait while a couple of cars drove slowly across my path and I was definitely seen then. I walked across the road caught in a car's headlights. Keeping my head down and trying to do my most feminine walk I soldiered on (should that be womaned on lol). What else could I do. I was now nearer home going on than to turn around and go back. When I came to a mini roundabout I had to wait while a car went by before crossing but as I did my heart raced because of couple of likely lads appeared walking towards me from across the roundabout. My fear was that if they chose the direction I was going in it meant that they would be behind me and if they saw what I was then they could have easily have followed me back to my home. Fortunately for the me the lure of McDonalds must have been greater because they headed off in that direction. Just another 100 yards and I would be back in my road. As I turned the corner my next fear was if a neighbour was out walking their dog and they would be coming directly towards me. My friends house was the first house I passed and they were thankfully inside. When I looked down road I could see it was clear and the only problem might be if a neighbour was to appear from their drive. Turning on to my drive I remember smiling at just achieving such a milestone. It's something I've always wanted to do. It took just over 30 minutes and gave me a lot of confidence and a chance to practice my girly walk.

Visit to Ikea
Just been told by S that if I wanted to I can go dressed enfemme to Ikea  this morning. Not so sure about it. Too many people. Too scary. Just had a thought....its April Fools day to day. Maybe its her way of having a joke on me.

Saturday 30 March 2013

Revitalised

I had a really good day yesterday. My wife decided that it was time we went shopping and bought a new dress, shoes and some costume jewellery for me. She is so good to me. We went into Evans because they have the sizes that will fit me. We spent some time looking about and although I was in male mode I did wear mascara, a pair of owl studs, a feminine ring and a couple of bracelets. So I don't think it could be missed by the shop assistants who we were shopping for. We found a dress and my wife also bought me a shrug to go with it. I'll post a photo later as she has said we'll go for a walk around a garden centre this morning. I didn't have the courage to ask if I could try the dress on in the shop although I really wanted to. There is nothing more disappointing than getting home with all your goodies only to find that what you bought doesn't fit.

In Evans I also got some costume jewellery which include a bracelet, necklace and a ring.

After shopping in Evans we made our way to Brantano's who have a good selection of shoes. We found a pair of wedge heeled shoes with a 1 1/2 inch heels. I did try them on and yes I spotted by other customers but I thought what the hell.

After getting these I'm in girly heaven, revitalised and I'm now looking forward to going out today in them and walking about getting photos. I'll post a couple of photos on here later.

For some time now I've been toying with the idea to tell other people about my crossdressing or at least not being so secretive about it all. It does worry me and I'm concerned not so much about people not accepting but of ridicule and persecution. Yes, I'm also worried about my employers finding out as well. It's difficult to know how people will respond and I would appreciate if anyone else out there could share their experiences.